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Mon Jan 19, 2009, 12:31 PM
  • Mood: Zeal
  • Listening to: "So Why So Sad" -- Manic Street Preacher
  • Reading: A Clockwork Orange
  • Drinking: Coffee
Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.


1.) Your name?
Ana
Not a petname for Anorexia. A cutesey name for self-induced starvation. Most often used by girls on xanga and myspace who don't really have an eating disorder but like to pretend. It's girls who want to shed a few pounds, who post how many calories they consumed that day and how many sit ups they did in order to try asnd prove they are anorexic. Real anorexics struggle with the disease and aren't ust trying to lose a few pounds. Real anorexics aren't proud.
Ana girls think that starvation is beautiful, glamourous, a lifestyle. They're annoying, bitchy, and an insult to any girl who has really struggled with anorexia nervosa.
"Ana" is a friend who "consumes" them who makes them skinny.
Friends with mia girls.
Role Models are the olsen twins and Nicole Richie
>>;

2.) Your age?
15
"Any girl under eighteen who lies about her age. Closley related to the term jailbait but more devious."

3.) One of your friends?
Sammy
the sexiest man you will ever see. a pimp, someone who has a huge penis, and is a master at numerous sexual positions. to hump. Complete opposite of jose

4.) What should you be doing?
Sleeping
To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in.

5.) Favorite color?
Pink
slang reference to the vagina

6.) Birthplace?
Los Angeles
I did the second definition because the first was way too long.

A massive tangle of highways and roads, also rumoured to contain people and houses.

7.) Month of your birth?
November
The most popular form of rain when getting married to a hot and sexy rockstar.

8.) Last person you talked to?
Brittany
A girl that commonly gets mistaken for a slut or being easy, but often is a smart and beautiful person. She knows what she is talking about and can be very wise.

9.) One of your nicknames?
Anita
The village bicycle. A complicated enigma, she manages to be a prude and a tease at the same time.

aka flippin' hot!!!

10.) Tagging?
No thanks.

This is not a valentine; it's a massacre

Sun Dec 14, 2008, 11:58 AM
  • Mood: High
  • Listening to: "Immortality" -- Pearl Jam
  • Reading: MacBeth
  • Drinking: Vitamin water
Info
[5'4'' exactly] I am shorter than 5'4''.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All of those are answered honestly.

A mix of everything?

Sat Oct 18, 2008, 1:04 PM
  • Mood: High
  • Listening to: Michio's Death Drive -- Minus the Bear
  • Reading: A Clockwork Orange
~Theater Kid~
[x] Ever been in a School play?
[x] Have you ever seen a Broadway/West End show?
[x] Seen more than 10 shows?
[x] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater?
[x] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever?
[x] Do you like the Sound of Music?
[x] Did you like the Broadway show?

~Redneck~
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[x] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[x] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[x] Do you like to get dirty?
[x] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more than 1 acres?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[ ] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?

~Goth~
[ ] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[ ] Is most of your clothing dark?
[ ] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale?
[x] Do you own something from Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[ ]Are you mean?

~Punk~
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[x] Do you wear Vans, dcs, converse, ect.?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[x] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do you have any piercings?
[ ] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[ ] Are you a rebel without a cause?
[ ] Have you called someone a poseur recently?
[ ] Does it piss you off when people say poser instead of poseur?

~Prep~
[x] Do you say the word "like" a lot?
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[ ] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you?
[x] Do you laugh a lot?
[ ] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] Do you like pop music?
[ ] Do you want/have a little dog?
[x] Do you smile a lot?
[ ] Do you hang out with your friends alot?
[x] Do you always carry a purse/wallet?


~Hippie~
[x] Is your hair long?
[x] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[x] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Do you play a ukulele or os?
[ does hookah count?] Do/have you ever smoked the peace pipe?
[ ] Do you wear a peace sign around your neck?
[x] Do you just sit in the grass with your friends and play guitar?

~Gangsta~
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop?
[x] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[ ] Do you like to dance?
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?

~Emo~
[x] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like hard music?
[ ] Do people not understand you?
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[x] Have you ever cut yourself?
[ ] Are you LONELY?
[ ] Do you like ohio is for lovers by Hawthorne Heights?
[x] Do you think a lot?

~Surfer~
[ ] Do you surf?
[x] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[x] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[x] Do you hate tourists?


~Geek~
[x] Do you wear glasses?
[x] Do you get good grades?
[x] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[x] Are you on the computer often?
[ ] Do you ever get picked on?
[x] Do you look forward to going to school?
[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[x] You play video games?

Journal Alive!

Tue May 27, 2008, 1:39 PM
  • Mood: Grumpy
  • Listening to: The Rain Song -- Led Zeppelin
  • Reading: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
  • Watching: M*A*S*H
Does anyone here have a Livejournal? If so, hit me up! Just make sure I know who you are on here. =)

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I'm Alive

Fri Mar 7, 2008, 12:51 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Lady Jane -- The Rolling Stones
  • Reading: One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
I'm here. Thought I'd share something I whipped up a while ago. It's quite true and now that I look at it, kind of funny.

Over the past few months I’ve lost about four people I truly loved. It began in July with my cousin, Will and continued on until November. Maybe it started before that with my friend’s suicide. People died, people moved, and shit hit the fan. Whatever happened to them I think I can say I have a few people I miss. In these few months since July I’ve found that there’s no reason to dwell on the past. Sure, I can remember them.; why the hell not? I loved them and I still do. But the difference is how I remember them. I’m not going to sit in my own corner all my life dwelling on when they were I alive. I’m still alive. However, that doesn’t mean there aren’t people that are alive that I miss. I think I’ll tell you about him.

If my town is a druggie town, you should see Fairfield. If we buy weed, they order it by the ton. Am I exaggerating? Maybe a little. But my point is that if my town is Stonerville, Fairfield is Stone City.

John Peterson moved from Fairfield to our humble town of Stepford wife wannabes, commuting business men, and suburban kids who listened to rap in May of 2007. And who’s to say that Jackie wasn’t amongst them? Oh, he was. His underwear? Everyday I could tell you what color they were because his jeans hung so low. His walk? Like a caveman with a bad limp. It was only a matter of time before he got grillz and started free-versing in the hallway.

Other than the fact that John Peterson was a ghetto wannabe, he was a stoner of the worst kind. The kind that smelled. I had the great misfortune of sharing each core class with John and sitting across from him in science during the first half of my eighth grade year. Oh, Lord, did he smell. If you’ve ever smelled weed, it’s a sickly-sweet grassy smell -- almost herbal. He smelled of stale weed, vodka, and to cover it up, Tag Body Spray for Men. Honestly, if you’re going to get high, for God’s sake, go get high and then take a shower. Don’t try and cover it up like that.

Regardless of how he smelled, I had to suffer through it every single damned day. At lunch he’d steal my chips -- how do I know? You could almost smell where he’d been. The worst, though was science class. For my first quarter I sat with Stevie Carson, Johnny Klien, and John Peterson. Now, let the record say that John never had any misfortune in looks. He was damn hot. Stevie was quite aware of this fact, seeing as she giggled at his jokes, stared at him with no shame, and always let him cheat on tests.

Now, I’m I care a hell of a lot about my grades, but I’m not always above letting someone have the answers on lab questions and the likes. That is, someone who I like. That is, not John Peterson. To compensate for my apparent bitchyness for not letting him cheat, John amused himself and Stevie by pushing Johnny off of his stool and throwing staples at me. I got back at him by breaking a pencil or something of his. It became a battle of the immaturity. Whoever came out most immature and most pissed off won; or lost. It's really either way you look at it, I suppose.

Our little battle raged on until early November when one day John and one of his stoner friends decided to deal in the courtyard. Real smart, boys. It was something of a sight, actually. I was sitting in the back of the courtyard with some friends when we saw the vice principal come out with the school security guard. John split -- except, oh, wait, where the hell are you gonna go in the middle of a courtyard with two men who are about the size of bouncers following you? Yeah, not far.

John got sent to the principle's, arrested, sent to rehab, came back to Fairfield to live with his dad in January and started back again. It’s kind of sad, really. He was really smart -- I could tell since I had all my classes with him. He was brilliant in math. It’s just a shame that he wasted it all on pot and drinking.

Do you think I’m crazy that I miss John? I bet you do. There’s a small part of me that had a shameful crush on him. He was cute, had the chance to be brilliant, and he was funny in an annoying way. Since his pot dealing at BMS he’s been expelled, but we still talk about him. He’s something of a legend, really. And I don’t think I’m the only one who misses him, either. He provided an entertainment outside of the usual girly-bitch drama in middle school; he made us laugh and I did get some passive, otherwise bottled up aggression out on him. I think it’s one of those almost guilty entertainments; not like porn where I imagine you feel ashamed and afraid to be caught. More like one of those crappy soaps on TV that somehow air for years. John was a dramady that was so bad that everyone just loved it. So for that, I wish my dramady still aired, but I also wish him the best, wherever he may be. Here’s to you, JP.

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